Hey guys. I don't know how many of you actually follow me on this blog, but apparently some of my ff viewers still do and wrote to me about it the other day so I figured I'd explain on here, too.
I had scoliosis surgery recently, and honestly, it's hell for me to even roll over, much less write. I'm trying, though. Just be patient. I haven't given up on Stranded, it's almost finished and there's no reason for me to abandon my baby.
I know there's only 16 chapters up on here, but if you want the other 22 or 23 chapters (I honestly can't remember right now how mnay I have posted) you can always find me on fanfiction.net under the penname dangerousandbeautiful. I have other stories up that have been updated, too, simply because they were more fun to write right before my surgery.
I'm getting better every day. I'll be writing more in no time. I promise. Meanwhile, watch Harry Potter. Seriously, it's better than Twilight movies anyway.
Saturday, July 2, 2011
Update
Posted by Beth818 at 4:50 PM 0 comments
Labels: beth818, dangerousandbeautiful, fan fiction, Harry Potter, Robert Pattinson, stranded
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Stranded Outtake: Fun on the Island!

A/N: Hello, my beautiful readers. This is an outtake from Stranded. It takes place sometime during B and E’s stay on the island. I’m warning you guys, this is a major lemon, not like most of my other lemons.
This is what happens when a woman like me becomes single again. I hope you guys feel benefited from my heartbreak, lol.
Seriously, this lemon will make your lips pucker. Read at your own risk ;D
Bella
I was insatiable, and he was a godsend from Heaven. Just looking at him made me wetter than the ocean surrounding us. I watched his back muscles move up and down with his heavy breathing.
Edward had been asleep for almost two hours, but I just didn’t feel tired. We’d swam and played and goofed off all day, so I should have been exhausted. We didn’t have sex in the last twenty four hours, and I was surprised Edward hadn’t tried today. Every other day he wanted it three times a day, and I was all for it each time.
So what was the problem today? Did he think I was sore or something? Honestly, I loved that he cared about me, but if supposed soreness was the reason, he should have just asked. I’d thought about jumping him just to make sure he still wanted me. The lust was killing me, and even though he was just two inches from me, I missed him. Well, my vagina missed him.
I groaned loudly on purpose, trying to rouse him. Maybe he would see my little problem and…tackle it. I rolled my eyes at myself. God, I was being so stupid.
I laid down next to him and put my head on his outstretched arm. Looking up at the stars, I started counting them as if they were sheep.
Ten minutes later, I had counted a hundred and fifty stars and I still was not one bit tired. And Edward was simply snoring away. It was adorable and aggravating at the same time, and I wanted to scream. Scream in frustration and to wake him up.
I sat up again quickly, sending sand everywhere, including inside my underwear. Ugh, this is what I got for trying to stay cool and sexy at night. I stood up clumsily, and I could feel the sand in between my butt cheeks.
“Oh, this is disgusting,” I moaned as I started walking towards the water. The sand moved with me and stuck to the sweat on my unsatisfied body. I looked back at Edward’s sleeping form to make sure he didn’t see what had just happened. As much as I wanted him awake, I didn’t care for the idea of embarrassing myself.
I got to the water, and it was surprisingly cool for once, probably because the sun hadn’t been beating down on it for a few hours. I finally made it waist deep and started washing the sand off my bottom. Once I was finished, I didn’t really want to leave the water. After all, it was cooler than the sand, and I wasn’t in any danger being in this shallow level. Maybe I would get out once I started to feel tired. The water was so soothing on my sun burn. I laid back a bit and started floating, thinking about Edward.
I had lost my virginity in this water, and I wouldn’t have had it any other way. Other girls could say they lost it in their boyfriend’s bed or in his old pickup, but me, I was special. I lost it in the Atlantic Ocean, stranded on a desert island with the most perfect man on the planet.
Flashes of that day erupted in my mind, and once again, I was aroused. I was throbbing, aching for something. For Edward. My fingers drifted to my center, and I unabashedly started rubbing myself. I needed more, though, so I slid my fingers under the band of my underwear and touched my clit. I circled it a few times before moving on to my poor, lonely opening. I had never done this before in my life, but then again, there were many things I had never done before I became stranded on this spit of land. I pretended my fingers were Edward’s and imitated the wonderful movements he had gotten me addicted to. I slowly pressed one finger inside--
“BELLA!” I heard the voice come from not so far away and abruptly ripped my hand from my core. My face caught on fire as I looked around.
Edward was standing on the edge of the water, looking straight at me. I stood up and met his gaze.
“Bella,” he called to me, his voice shaky. He started walking through the water to me. I stayed still, wondering how much he had just seen. “I was so worried, Love. I woke up and you weren’t next to me, and I even called your name a few times. I was about to have a heart attack!” He sighed exasperatedly. “What are you thinking, coming in the water at this time? It’s dark and you can barely see! I almost searched the whole island for you, never thinking you would be crazy enough to come in the water alone in the dark!”
I frowned and looked down at my glowing legs in the water. He reached me and took both my hands into his. He noticed my face and said, “What’s wrong, baby? You look so sad.”
I shrugged, still not meeting his eyes. I just want you inside me, that’s all. “I--I--I couldn’t sleep.” He let out a breath before leading me to the shore.
“Let’s go back to sleep. I’m dead beat. I can hum your lullaby, if you’d like. Think that might help you fall asleep?”
No. “Sure.” I met his eyes and smiled. He smiled back and we walked back to our sleeping spot. We laid down together and he started to hum my song. I put my face in his chest and pretended to fall asleep. He must have dozed off not even five minutes later, because he quit humming.
Five more minutes.
Ten minutes.
Twenty.
Thirty.
Not even a yawn or sleepy eyes. I made a face and rolled over. I was actually kind of pissed at him. Really, a man is supposed to satisfy his woman every night, isn’t he? I thought Edward of all people would have gotten that message.
I rolled over again and looked at him. I traced his pectorals, letting my hands drift down to the trail of happiness on his beautiful stomach. I stopped at his waistband and let my eyes look over the rest of him. My gaze met a slight lump in the crotch of his cutoffs, and I felt my nipples tighten at the wondrous sight.
I don’t think he’s sleeping. And if he is, then he’s having a good dream.
Deciding that it didn’t really matter either way, my hands pounced on him lightly, going for the gold. He was hardening more by the second, and I stared at his face to make sure I didn’t wake up as I unzipped his shorts. He didn’t move, and his face showed no sign of waking, so I pulled his erection out.
Hello, my darling several inches of Heaven and Hell. I’ve missed you terribly.
Looking at his face one more time before continuing, I studied the beautiful specimen in my hands. It hardened more and throbbed when my fingers ghosted over the head. I grabbed the base with one hand and started stroking, and lubricated the fingers of my other hand with the wetness from my pussy.
I took my wetted fingers and swirled them over the tip of his head, still stroking with my other hand. The moonlight created a magical glow.
“You know, Bella, rape is very frowned upon,” a sexy voice said across from me. I looked up at his face, surprised. His eyes were still closed, but he was grinning slightly.
“Rape is only rape when the other person isn’t willing,” I said, my voice just as husky as his. I sped up my actions on his shaft just to prove my point. His grin turned into a mega watt smile, and I heard him chuckle softly.
“Are you going to tell me no, Edward?” I said sweetly, squeezing him lightly. He moaned and opened his eyes slowly.
“Telling you no would be a sin,” he responded, looking at me. His emerald eyes were hooded, and he was the sexiest thing I had ever seen. I wanted to show him that fact.
I leaned over and took him into my mouth quickly, opening my jaw as wide as possible. He hissed and swore loudly, grabbing a handful of my hair. I swirled my tongue over the head and took him as far as my mouth could. I was not experienced at this, so I didn’t try to deep throat him, afraid that I would gag and make a fool of myself. Maybe he could teach me some other time. I sucked hard, his moans egging me on. I drifted my free hand to his sack and lightly took it in my palm. I looked up at him through my lashes because I knew how he loved that shit.
Suddenly he grabbed my face and forced my mouth off him. I licked my lips and looked at his questioningly. He crashed his mouth to mine and dominated my tongue. I moaned into the kiss and gripped his hair. I was literally dripping for him now and couldn’t help bucking my hips into his. He bucked right back and took hold of my hips and ass, raising me up. I wrapped my legs around his waist and gripped him harder as he stood up. He broke our kiss and said, “Need you. Now.”
I took hold of his mouth again and he carried me away. He broke our kiss again to see where he was going, so I started sucking on the skin on his muscular shoulder, marking him. There was no one else to see it, but it still made me happy to have a visible claim on him.
“God, baby, you keep doing that and I’ll never get us to where I’m going,” he moaned.
“You don’t have to keep going, just fuck me here!” I nearly shouted. A second later he threw me up against something rough and uncomfortable, but I barely even noticed, I was so engrossed in him. Our lips crashed together again, and we were gripping each other so tight it was as if we were trying to be one person.
His shorts had fallen off while walking, and he started ripping off my underwear and baggy shirt. Once he got them off, his fingers shot into me, feeling my wetness.
“I love you so much, baby. Your pussy is like a waterfall, and so, so perfect.” He stroked the inner walls of my center, curling his fingers and caressing my special spot. I dimly noticed he had me pinned against a tree. The rough bark was digging into my back, but the pain only turned me on more.
As much as I loved his fingers, I needed his dick at the moment, and nothing else would distract me. I let go of his shoulder and reached between us to grab him. He got my message and pulled his fingers out of me, replacing them with what I wanted most. He slammed into me quickly and I cried out in pleasure.
“Fuck, Edward! Fuck!”
“That’s what I’m doing, Bella!” He wrapped one of his hands in my hair while the other hand gripped the bark of the tree next to my head. He started a quick rhythm, and I couldn’t even think. I was on fire. My insides were burning. The tree was tearing up my skin and his hips were slamming into mine. The sweat was running off us in rivers, and I squeezed my legs around him to make sure I didn’t slip.
My head fell to the side, my brain turning to complete mush with each thrust he gave me. He licked the indentation below my throat, tasting my skin and sweat. I could feel the skin of my opening going back and forth with his sex.
“Unnhh, Edward--you’re--so--good--I--love--you,” I told him between thrusts. Gathering what was left of my strength, I lifted my head to look into his eyes. They were dark green with lust, and he looked crazed.
I made him that way, and it was the best feeling in the world…well, beside the feeling of him doing what he was doing at the particular moment.
“I--love--you--too!” he shouted. “You’re fucking Heaven, baby!”
A few more seconds of pounding, and I was done for. I started to tighten around him, my eyes rolling in to the back of my head. My insides were now a whole forest fire. My orgasm broke free, and I was drifting. My inner walls gripped him harder than they ever had before, and I could even feel my heartbeat where we were connected. I laid my head against his chest, weak. I felt his heart pounding to the rhythm of his thrusting.
Then he let go, shuddering and spilling his seed inside me. He fell back to the ground, taking me with him, still inside me. We both rode that wave for another minute before coming back to Earth. He opened his eyes and looked at me, moving a sweaty strand of hair out of my face and smiling smugly.
“That was--”
“--mind blowing,” I finished for him. His heart started to slow down, and he softened inside me, slipping out. I kissed his chest, now aware of the pain in my back. It really fucking hurt now. But that was definitely worth it.
“We should do that every night,” I said. He laughed. “I really needed it.” I looked at him, daring him to say why he hadn’t touched me like that all day.
“I’m sorry I didn’t do that earlier. It’s just…I’m always the one to instigate the sex. You never come to me; I always go to you. I was starting to feel like an ass,” he confessed.
“I’m always all for it,” I told him. “I love when you make love to me.” He smiled wider.
“I know. I just wanted you to start it for once. I wanted you to ask for it,” he explained. “And I love when I make love to you, too.” I sighed happily and started to doze off on his chest. Yeah, now I was tired.
“There’s one more thing,” he said. I looked up at him sleepily. He grinned wickedly. “Would you mind telling me what you were really doing in the water earlier?”
A/N: I hope you liked it! Bit different, huh? It’s been nagging at me for a while, and I wished I had put it in the story, but now it’s too late…so it’s just an outtake.
I can write more fun times on the island if you guys have any suggestions! ;D
All pictures are taken from either Google or Deviantart.
Posted by Beth818 at 3:40 PM 0 comments
Labels: beth818, fan fiction, outtake, stranded
Monday, April 19, 2010
Chapter Nine
Chapter Nine
Day Eleven Stranded
Bella
I splashed water onto my face again, trying to soothe my awful headache. Ugh, it hurt so much. I’d thrown up twice already and I still felt like shit. I should have paid more attention to how much I was drinking last night. When I woke up, Edward already had his wet tee shirt in his hands, waiting to put it on my forehead. Then, to my utter embarrassment, I felt the vomit coming up my stomach and into my throat, and I quickly turned my head to wretch onto the ground. I had looked at Edward apologetically, and he chuckled, putting the wet piece of clothing back over my face. An hour had passed since then, and it was just my luck to have a horrible hangover the first time I got drunk.
I looked back over to Edward, who was sitting in the sand watching me. I could make out his crooked-yet perfect-smile all the way from out here. ‘I love you!’ I wanted to yell. Instead, like the coward I was, I whispered the three words under my breath, as if he could hear me. And I knew they were true. I was in love with him, probably from the very start, but now that I was allowing him to break my guard down, I was starting to see it.
I’d never been in love before, but I knew this was it. And I didn’t want to fight the feeling or slow it down, because that was what old Bella would have done, and old Bella had been miserable. But even though I didn’t want to fight them, I didn’t know how to go about my feelings. What if I told him I loved him, and he thought I was crazy? I wouldn’t be able to take that. No normal person falls in love in just over a week, but this was definitely not a normal relationship. I mean, the only reason we met was because we got stuck together, the only two survivors of a plane cash.
Yeah, not normal at all.
We had been here with no one but each other, learning one another. I depended on him just as he depended on me. I had fallen in love with him after all of that, but what about Edward? Just because I felt that way didn’t mean he did, too.
I looked down at the water in front of me, reaching my waist. I could see my reflection, surprisingly clear. It seemed as if I had lost weight, but maybe it was just the water tricking me. My face looked slightly thinner, and my cheekbones seemed more prominent. My eyes were full of happiness, but confused at the same time.
It wasn’t too hard to figure out what that was from.
I looked back at Edward, blushing and smiling when I saw that he was still watching me.
What about when we got off the island? All these feelings of needing each other dependability could disappear, along with any love he could possibly have for me. In the real world, he wouldn’t need me, so who was to say he would still want me? Did he think this was just a fling for our time here, something just to pass the time, and once we were back on American soil, it would be as if it had never happened? I hoped not. I could see myself being with him, possibly even after we were saved. Possibly forever.
I shook the thoughts out of my head. If we were meant to be, we were meant to be. I was never much of a believer in fate, but now it seemed like my best option.
I walked back to the sand, back to Edward.
“Day eleven?” he said cheerfully?
I smiled. “Day eleven.”
***
Days passed in the same fashion, and I was unbelievably enjoying myself. Edward and I had a blast every moment we were together, and there was never a dull moment. We kissed and flirted like teenagers, and I was starting to grow more confident that Edward may love me back.
Maybe it was hopeful wishing, but something about the way he looked at me made me just know he loved me. He seemed to be so fascinated with me, which baffled my mind. I had never shared so much with someone before, and I had spoken more in the last twenty days than I had in my entire life. Edward was so full of energy, and his jokes even got me rolling in hysterics now, instead of scowling at him like I usually did.
Every time I wanted to tell him how strong my feelings were, I chickened out. I was starting to hope that he would say it first, seeing as he was so confident and outspoken, but he never did.
“What are you thinking?” Edward asked, pulling me out of my thoughtful trance. It was midday of our twentieth day here, and it was so nice, I just wanted to lay with him on the beach. He had been silent for so long, I thought he was sleeping. I rolled over onto my stomach closer to him, and we faced each other.
“I was just wondering…” I tried to think of something, buying time by rubbing his shoulder gently, “what we’re going to do today.”
“Liar,” Edward chuckled, calling me out on my fib. He traced his fingers along my jawbone, and I felt my face grow hot, even after all the times he had touched me. “You’re so beautiful, but you’re other-worldly when you blush like this. I wish I could make you blush every minute of every day for forever.” His words merely made me do it more, and at his mention of ‘forever’ I felt my face light on fire. I looked down in embarrassment.
Edward pulled my face back up and kissed me softly. I wanted to moan in pleasure. Just one kiss of his did this to me? Imagine if he made love to me. I would probably end up as a pool of Bella jello if we did go that far.
Edward retreated his face from mine, and laughed at my reluctant expression. He kissed me again, adding more passion this time. I tried to hold in giggles as his growing facial hair tickled my chin, but I failed, and I felt Edward smirk mischievously against my lips when he saw what he did to me. He paused for a second, and I wrongly thought he would have mercy on my face. Before I could pull away, he started rubbing his now thick stubble all over my face, making me break out in hysterical laughter.
“Stop! Stop!” I yelled. He laughed along with me as he tickled me, and finally stopped when I had trouble breathing.
“Edward!” I chided him, slapping his chest, then forgetting everything when I saw his pecs flex. He snorted loudly.
“Your face is all raw now,” he laughed, rubbing his stubble. I personally liked the scruffy look on him, but he probably looked good no matter what happened to him. He could wear a garbage bag and make it look good.
I rubbed my burning face, trying to soothe it, but my palm was so rough and sweaty, only making it worse.
“I’m sorry,” Edward said, pulling me into his lap and peppering my face with kisses. It felt nice until his stubble got in the way again.
“That’s going to become a problem, isn’t it?” he asked, smiling against my cheek. I didn’t answer, for his actions were filling me with desire again, and I didn’t want to show it. Edward must have noticed, though, because he tilted my head back slowly, gaining access to my neck. I closed my eyes unwillingly, giving in to the feeling of Edward trailing his lips across my throat.
I swallowed in anticipation. His hands came up around my ribcage where he stopped, probably unsure of how far I would let things go. I felt him kiss my collarbone, and nearly lost it when I felt his hot breath on the hollow of my throat. Then he licked around the bones and blew, eliciting a low moan from me. He must have realized that I was okay with this, because his hands finally came up to cup my breasts.
Then a stupid bird hooted loudly, and the moment was over. Edward’s hands fell to my hips again, his mouth leaving my heated skin.
Bastard bird, I thought, it seems that all the creatures on this island don’t want me to lose my virginity. I looked up at Edward, whose face looked apologetic.
“I’m sor-” he started to say again, but I cut him off with my fingers on his lips.
“Don’t apologize.” I wasn’t going to let him feel bad or regretful, especially when I was having the time of my life. He winked at me, and I removed my hand from his mouth.
“What do you want for dinner?” he asked as he removed my body from his lap carefully. I stood up and helped him to his feet, brushing sand off his waist.
“What do I want? I want a nice, big juicy steak and a stuffed baked potato,” I said.
“Okay, it shouldn’t be too hard to find a cow around here,” Edward joked. “Maybe there are some animals somewhere on the island.”
“I doubt it. We would have seen them by now if there were any wildlife,” I countered.
“Hey, you never know. We never really explored that much. We haven’t even been to the other side of the damn thing, and it’s already been three weeks.”
“Okay, smartass. Why don’t you go look for animals?” I asked, walking back into the shade. I was expecting him to answer me, but he stayed silent, and I looked up at him. He was smirking.
“Edward?” I stopped walking and he finally looked at me. “Mind telling me what’s so funny?”
“Sorry. What you just said made me remember something that happened to me when I was younger,” he said slowly.
“What was it?” I asked, curious. He sighed, pursing his lips to keep from smiling.
“When I was little, about five or six, Emmett used to always pick on me. He always called me smartass because I could read a whole book by first grade. One time we went to a horse stable and paid for a whole day of riding. So, when we were about to leave, Emmett and I ran into the barn and there was this stalled horse named Crazy.” Edward shuddered and continued. Well, the horse was crazy, you could tell just by looking at it. Emmett bet with me, saying he would give me five bucks if I went in and petted the horse. So, naïve like I was, I went in. The horse threw a fit that I had stepped into his stall, but I was determined to get that cash.” I gasped-he could have been badly hurt.
“What happened?” I asked anxiously. Edward grimaced.
“I went to pet Crazy on the nose and it bit me between my neck and my shoulder. That hurt like a bitch, too. I ran out crying, and I had a huge bruise for a whole two weeks. Emmett called it a horsy hickey.” I burst out in giggles. “I’ve been afraid of farm animals ever since. Talking about getting you a cow made me think of it.”
“Did you get your five dollars?” I asked. Edward scoffed.
“No, I didn’t! I’m going to have to remind him of that one day!” Edward said, laughing.
“So, I’m guessing you want me to go with you, since you’re scared?” I tried to clarify. He shook his head.
“Of course not. I’m just scared of horses. And there aren’t any on this island,” he said. “You just go sit and look pretty. I’ll go try to find something.” He kissed me quickly, turning toward the “jungle,” as we had deemed it.
I marched to the shoreline, wetting my feet, trying to burn time until Edward got back. I would have insisted on going with him, but I knew that we shouldn’t spend all day every day together so much, or we would either get sick of each other or drive each other crazy.
My face felt so dry and my mouth tasted disgusting. I didn’t know how Edward could stand kissing me-my breath must have been horrible. Edward’s wasn’t, though; he always tasted good, like honey and cinnamon and fruit. I wished I had some soap or at least a toothbrush.
I went back to the shade once again and took a nap.
I was woken from my sleep about an hour later by Edward calling my name and touching my face tenderly.
“Bella, I have something to show you!” I groaned, not wanting to wake up from my wonderful dream in which Edward had not stopped his ministrations on my body from earlier.
“Come on, Babe, you’re going to love it!” I groaned again-such a good dream. Suddenly I felt my body being lifted from the ground, Edward having picked me up.
“I can walk,” I said, looking up into his excited face.
“Silly girl, I know you can, but this is a surprise, and you need to keep your eyes closed. I’m afraid you can’t even walk straight with your eyes open, so there’s no way I’m letting you do it blind.” I scowled at him, but closed my eyes all the same.
“I hate surprises,” I muttered.
Edward chuckled. “No peeking.”
He traveled with me in his arms for nearly twenty minutes, still not giving me a hint as to where we were going.
“It’s at the heart of the island,” was all he would say.
“I hope you didn’t find a herd of monkeys or something,” I said dryly. “Because that wouldn’t really be a good surprise.”
“No, it’s nothing like that,” he said. I could hear the smile in his voice.
“How much longer?” I groaned.
“About ten minutes. This island is bigger than I thought. Still not big enough to build anything, though. Maybe a summer home at the least.”
I waited another ten minutes, counting in my head.
“It’s been ten minutes, Edward.”
“Bella, we’ll get there when we get there. It’s not much longer, petulant child.”
A few more minutes passed until finally Edward told me to keep my eyes closed as he set me down. I could hear a strange noise, and I got soaked as Edward lowered me.
I sputtered and tried to open my eyes, shocked that he was putting me in water. He covered my eyes with his hand so that I still couldn’t see. I spouted his name off, worried.
“Calm down, Bella,” Edward said soothingly. I felt my butt hit ground under the water, so the water wasn’t deep. Edward removed his hand from my eyes and I looked around.
It was a…creek? I looked down at the cold water around me, and it was clear and beautiful, floating over the packed gravel. I splashed it over my face, and licked my lips, gasping.
“It’s fresh water!” I looked at Edward, who was watching my reaction. He nodded and splashed water into his face, too. I turned to where the noise was coming from. It was a mini waterfall, the water cascading into the little stream I was in.
“It’s a spring,” Edward told me. “I can’t believe the island has one. And look what I found!” Edward pulled something from his pocket and showed it to me, palm up. It was a coin, and it looked gold and beat up.
“Do you think it’s real?” I asked, taking it from him and examining it closer. I could just make out the carving of a person, but I couldn’t tell if it was a man or a woman, it was so packed with dirt and grime.
“I don’t know. You think pirates hid gold here a long time ago? Seems pretty exciting, huh?” Edward said, taking the coin back from me. I nodded. “You want to go on a treasure hunt?” I laughed at his happy face; he looked like a little boy on Christmas morning.
Edward laid back in the water, causing little ripples to float my way. I took a few sips of the water, feeling fully satisfied after being without fresh water for twenty days. I laid back on Edward, and he hummed the beautiful melody he had made up. We watched the sky through the trees as it darkened and the stars came out, shining brightly.
“You want to go back before we fall asleep here?” Edward asked after a while. I got up and we walked back to our little sanctuary. I yawned.
“My back is starting to hurt from laying on the ground every night,” I told him.
“Yeah, mine, too. I’ll have to do something about that.”
I buried my head in his chest once we reached our sleeping place, falling asleep quickly. The last thing I felt was Edward’s lips kissing the top of my head.
Edward
I watched Bella sleep as I drifted off. She started mumbling, which was strange because she normally only talked early in the morning, when she was about to wake up. I heard my name a few times and a couple moans which were really hard to ignore. I remembered how far we had gone earlier and felt my jeans tighten. This woman really would be the death of me. I didn’t want to ruin everything by going too far, but this waiting and watching her body all the time was driving me crazy. Why is it that when you don’t love someone, it’s so easy to not care and you have all the confidence in the world, but when you do love someone, your ego goes out the window and you never want to take a chance at messing things up? I never thought being in love would be this hard.
I ran my hands over the swell of her hip, enjoying the satin of her skin on my fingertips. Why couldn’t I do this when she was awake? I knew why; I was afraid she would reject me. I was afraid she didn’t love me, or at least didn’t love me enough to let me make love to her. But she didn’t complain earlier, a voice in my head said.
I shook off the thoughts. Maybe I would just know when she was ready, like how I just knew when I loved her.
I wrapped my arms around her little body, enjoying the warmth of her. She sighed happily in her sleep, still mumbling.
“Edward,” she said, “love you…” I looked at her in disbelief. I could almost feel my eyes bulging out of my head. She smiled lightly, obviously dreaming about me. Oh, how I wished she would say that while awake. I snuggled closer, beaming.
“I love you, too, Sweetheart.”
All pictures are taken from either Google or Deviantart.
Posted by Beth818 at 8:15 PM 0 comments
Labels: fan fiction, twilight